I’ve been thinking a lot about what I do and don’t post on here. Mostly it is just pictures of the kids and the stories surrounding them. I am going to to try to write more of my thoughts and feelings. Sharing my feelings has never been easy for me. Plus, I feel like I have a tendency to only put forward the stuff that is safe and good enough for people to see. I know that it is such a breath of fresh air when I read what other people’s lives are REALLY like underneath. It helps me feel more connected to them and that is another reason I feel like I should be more forthright in my blogging. So here goes.
I feel that it is usually around Valentine’s Day, that I start to break through my winter blues. Don’t know the reason or reasons but I know that I feel a lot less motivated to do normal things and I feel a lot more tired. I have to really keep track of my moods from January 2nd till maybe March or April because I tend to take things out on my family otherwise. I don’t know. I feel like I am 30 years old and still figuring myself out. I think I am finally starting to understand myself a little. And I guess the one thing that has definitely helped is to do the simple things. Things like taking time to pray in the morning, and making time to study and meditate on the scriptures, and believe it or not, writing in my journal (or blog). I have had a struggle with being consistent with these things. Also, doing things for others, and serving my family helps. I don’t’ know what I would do some mornings if I didn’t have a family to take care of. I guess this time helps me to appreciate the rest of the year more and I am forced to look for the good. Accentuate the positive. Eliminate the negative. Don’t mess with mister in-between.
And on that note, I am SO excited for Valentine’s Day this year! I don’t know that I have ever gotten stoked about it like this before. I am looking forward to doing some fun projects with my kids and maybe even going out on the town with my hubby. Stay tuned for the details! Hope you all have a wonderful Valentine’s Day!