We reserved a Vrbo apartment for the month we arrive in Mongolia. It’s nice to have a place to land when we get there. It’s strange to write all of this out in the open, but here goes. I love my Heavenly Father. He plays an active role in my life. He is interested in my feelings and my future. He is a teacher. A patient Father. This relationship is very personal to me. And yet I have joy in knowing that He is equally interested in all of His other children. As we walk towards Him, His voice is easier to hear and understand. When we walk away, we could eventually get to the point where we may doubt He even existed at all.
This was written under the title of a continuing entry of Returning Home. I wouldn’t be going to Mongolia if my Heavenly Father hadn’t made it clear that was where He wanted my family (or at least my family who still lives in this house) and I to go. I am sure of that much. I’m not sure yet how I’ll support them. But I never really have supported them. Every job I’ve ever gotten has been acquired through some miracle in our lives. Heavenly Father has been supporting my family.
26 Behold the fowls of the air, for they sow not, neither do they reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feedeth them. Are ye not much better than they?
3rd Nephi 13:26-33
27 Which of you by taking thought can add one cubit unto his stature?
28 And why take ye thought for raiment? Consider the lilies of the field how they grow; they toil not, neither do they spin;
29 And yet I say unto you, that even Solomon, in all his glory, was not arrayed like one of these.
30 Wherefore, if God so clothe the grass of the field, which today is, and tomorrow is cast into the oven, even so will he clothe you, if ye are not of little faith.
31 Therefore take no thought, saying, What shall we eat? or, What shall we drink? or, Wherewithal shall we be clothed?
32 For your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have need of all these things.
33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you.
This scripture, which of course is very similar to what is in Matthew 6, has comforted me a lot through the years. I can hear the voices of some reading this thinking, ‘Yeah, that may be true, but you still need to have a plan. You still need to not foolishly leave a job with a company who has been very good to you. What you are doing is reckless and irresponsible.’ I acknowledge that the optics aren’t great. I understand that from the outside this may appear foolhardy. I think about that maybe more than I should. I love where we live. I love the people among whom we live. I love my job and the situation I’m in right now. But it’s time to go. And I have covenanted with Heavenly Father that I will answer the call. I would love to have more answers than I have right now, but in this specific scenario, this is all I have so far. I have my fears as we walk towards this. But my wife and Heavenly Father constantly reassure me that this is the correct course of action and things will be okay. With that in mind, when Lehi was going to his promised land, he was gung ho to go, but when things got hard because of his great afflictions, even he murmured.
I have murmured for far less, and I don’t want to do that again. I know things will probably get hard in ways I can’t now anticipate, but I also know that if I endure it with patience and faith in Jesus Christ, my family and I will be better for it on the other side. And I will be grateful for the experience–even the trials.
Right now, all I’m being told is to get rid of all the clutter in the house, and to get to Mongolia. I know more answers will come.