We have been working towards closing on our house, but things just haven’t seemed to be moving at all. And Tom and I have had an uneasy feeling and we have been struggling to figure out what it means. Last night Tom and I decided to go with a different lender and ever since then I haven’t felt so confused. We met with our new lender this morning and she talked like we should be able to close within 15 days. Hopefully things will work out that way. I know she is really moving on this and she knows what she is doing.
I think it is interesting having these different road blocks or feelings to guiding me. I know it is the Holy Ghost giving me direction. It can be incredibly taxing and stressful figuring out how to move past these trials or to resolve them. I have taken a hard look at my life these last few days, thinking about how I would feel if we weren’t able to get this house. I would be dissappointed, yes, but the things that truly make me happy and that I show entirely too little gratitude for are the things or people in my life that I already have. Every time the challenges I have lead me in a better direction than I would have ever gone in the first place and help me to see what I need to change either about myself or the situation. And I am learning to pay closer attention to the feelings in my mind and heart. This is one way I know Heavenly Father answers my prayers and sometimes I don’t even recognize it. I know in the past when I do stop and pay attention to my feelings and then act accordingly, I have peace.